For your reading pleasure, I have included an exclusive Never Before Published Romance Novella - Avril & Owen inside this book and it starts from the next page
Avril & Owen - An Exclusive Never Before Published Romance
Oh, my goodness,” I coo breathlessly while taking a step closer to the extremely gorgeous man standing in front of me. “I don’t know what to say to you. I never thought you would be here in front of me telling me that you love me. It’s all too much.” I flutter my lashes. “I’m overwhelmed.”
He grabs my hands and stares deeply into my eyes. I lose myself in the warm brown, already knowing that this man is a million times too good for little old me. I have no idea what someone like him would see in me which makes me feel shy and awkward. I barely know how to hold myself.
“Layla, I do love you,” he says breathlessly back. “The question is if you love me?”
Before I can answer, his lips crash into mine and he sweeps my breath away. I mold into him, clearly giving myself over to him completely, showing him my love with my actions if I can’t quite find the words to say it back. I need him to see that I love him with every single inch of me…
“Cut!” Buzz’s hands fall off me and we part in a heart beat as the director, Lee, ends this again. “No, no, no, Avril this is all wrong. Seriously. I don’t know how we’re still in this position. I told you weeks ago that you need to work on your sex appeal. There is no chemistry here on your part.”
My eyes fall to the ground, I feel sick to my stomach. I hate myself all over again. I’ve been really trying to get this right, the last thing I want to do is mess up the opportunity of a lifetime, which this movie definitely is bringing for me, but I cannot seem to get it right. Everything I do works, I’ve really brought Layla and her story to life, it’s only the love side of it I can’t get right. That’s unfortunate because the love story part of it is massive. It’s what audience will want to see.
“I’m sorry, I’m really trying my hardest. I don’t know what I’m doing wrong.”
“You don’t have any confidence in yourself!” Lee explodes. “It’s obvious. As soon as Buzz comes anywhere near you, you crumble and fall apart. You need to believe that he loves you.”
Boiling hot tears bubble up in the corner of my eyes as I realize that I’m on the verge of losing everything. It’s taken me forever to make it as an actress, I’ve done all sorts of jobs that I don’t really want to do, all to get to this point. Lead female in a movie. If I lose this I have nothing.
“I need to take a break,” Buzz shoots out arrogantly. He knows that he isn’t the issue and since he’s a bigger star than me I don’t think he takes too kindly to me hashing things up. “Back in five.”
“Avril, do you want to come with me for a moment?” Carly, my make up artist and best friend on set wraps her arms around me. “Let me touch you up a little bit. Your mascara needs some help.”
If anyone knows how I feel, it’s her. We’ve grown closer over the last few months and I’ve confided in her a lot. She’s the one I always go to when it seems like things are going badly. I allow her to drag me into my dressing room where we can have a few moments alone to talk things through.
“Don’t worry about Lee,” she reassures me right away. “He’s known for being a dick.”
“He’s right though, isn’t he?” I ask her morosely while flopping into a nearby chair. “I suck at creating chemistry. I mean, it doesn’t help that I don’t think much of Buzz but still I should be able to overcome that.” A tear finally streams down my cheek. “I suck as an actress, I should give up.”
Carly grabs hold of my shoulders and she stares defiantly at me. “You should not give up, don’t let one bad scene take you down. Everything else you’ve done really well with. You just need to figure out a way to make this work.” She pauses and taps her chin thoughtfully. “From what you’ve told me, the reason you can’t act with passion, is because you haven’t really had any in your life. You don’t have any real-life experience to draw off. That’s probably something we can fix, right?”
I have to admit, Carly is right about that, I haven’t had much passion in my life. At twenty-two years of age I haven’t ever had a boyfriend that I can find any real desire with. There was Gary in my later teenage years, but he was boring, especially in bed. Very much concerned with his own pleasure rather than me. I suppose I accepted it because he was my first and I didn’t know any different. Then, once that fizzled out, Matt came along last year. I thought he was awesome, but it wasn’t long before he revealed himself to be a jerk too. He was selfish and a cheating asshole… and that was all him.
My entire dating history in one short burst of nothingness. It’s embarrassing to think of.
“How can I fix it?” I ask her desperately. “What can I do short of getting a boyfriend?”
“I wouldn’t recommend that. Your taste is terrible! No, you just need a good seeing to.”
Her words cause an instant blush to fill my cheeks, I’m definitely not like that at all. I can fake confidence when I’m acting because I’m playing a role, I’m being someone else, but when it comes to being myself it’s a whole other story. I’ve always been a shy, quieter girl.
I turn to glance at my reflection, looking at my blonde, currently wavy hair and my bright blue eyes, wondering if I could ever be the sort of girl who has a one night stand.
“I couldn’t do that,” I tell Carly honestly. “I couldn’t ever go out to a bar and pick up some random dude. I don’t know how to even talk to guys when I’m not in a role.”
ou are someone else,” Carly declares as if it’s obvious. “That could work, couldn’t it? Method acting and all that. You need to be the character to play the character.”
I shudder, knowing that there would still be a point where it’s me. When I take my clothes off and I strip for him it’ll be me and that’s when I’ll freak. It might be a good idea but it wouldn’t work out that way in reality. I shake my head and turn back to look at my friend.